fresh start

* was actually 9/15 but computer failed me
so since i totally failed the whole first 30 day thing, i am just going to start new and just not worry about the whole 30 day thing!! lol




I have been thinking a lot lately about life and love and the people in my life and the people i miss the most! With everyday that goes by my heartache only grows stronger for my Nanny i miss her terribly!! everyone says that things heal with time and they are wrong cause every day that goes by only makes it that much harder!!! along with everyone else that i have lost!! but mostly her!! the other day my great-great unle had his 90th birthday!! his sister was my great grandmother and she has been gone since 2004, however he has made it this far and i love this man to death, he mean a lot to me!



I guess this blog is just kind of random stuff!! lol



i miss people that i havent lost yet too though!! i miss the relationship my papaw and i had before he got re-married! I miss some of my friends from emt class! and i miss my rotc family!! I also miss my husband! and i can not wait to start a normal life with him!!! Hopefully once we get to New Jersey and get settled and i can start back to school things can start to settle down and become more normal if that is even possible lol!!



As of right now I love my life and everyone that is in it!!! Im just ready for a little bit of normal but im not sure if that is possible being a military wife and all lol!! well thats it for now ive rambled enough lol!